                        *** ACID IN WONDERLAND ***
                   (Adapted Notes from the Underground)

  Hello this is Puppet again.  I thought I should include these priceless
  letters to convey some of the past life that went into the inspiration 
  of Acid in Wonderland.  These date back to a time when I ran a bbs 
  called Cybernet.  It was a unique place as you will soon see as you 
  stumble through the unforgotten hallways of a ghosttown that had its
  moment in time.  All the users you read from are still around today and
  will hopefully be contributing further to recent issues of AIW, and in
  TV-X.  We would also be happy to addapt a special mail section in 
  upcomming issues to include the thoughts of you people out there! 
  
  Chosen letters positive or not, will be reprinted with a response from
  me or another member of TV-X.  Look at the end of this text for various
  addresses.
                                                        -Cool Runnings!
  ----------------------------------------------------------------------

  LIP MSG# 10451  08/31/92 17:03   Read: 34
  FROM: SYSSTAT  Lestat de Valois
  TO:   ALL
  SMRY: Peace Net.

 The other day I was sitting here and watching all the users on-line.
 For some reason, I had quite a blast of what reality was.  I considered
 my life and within and became quite depressed with what I saw.  I don't
 even understand the passing moment, but that was all it was.  Today, I
 am fine... something during chat, really struck me strange, and I still
 have no idea what it is... I searched and probed for the answer but that
 was unreachable as well.  I think it has to do with society today.  IT's
 quite depressing when you consider what it really is.  The politics
 behind it.  When you consider your place in life and what you really
 are... and what you're really here for... one may no more be the grain
 of sand on a beach or a dying star in the sky.
 
 09/01/92 11:57 SYSOP Battle Axe (Now Puppet Head)
    
    Well man... I used to feel that way Lestat, but *sigh* some of this
 is hard to explain.  I assume you read the first message in here, that
 would help.  Anyway basically, society as a whole "Stinks" it's
 confuse{, people look for someone to be in control, but never realize
 that no-one is in control.  Lestat, you and I, it is us that controls
 things for ourselves.  We are at that stage now.  We are intellectually
 capable of doing anything and being anyf*thi]ing.  Most of sou!ciety
 just trys to find guidance in others, in a system.  They were taught
 that "Getting a Wife, Kids, Nice House, Good Job, Nice Car, etc." is
 "IT" that's their destiny.  That is what they must do to have a normal
 life... and so they strive for that ideal.  But when they get their,
 they usually go through a Mid-Life crises because they somewhat realize
 that there is nothing else for them, so they just try to gain more and
 more things, and end up old and thinking about how they wasted their
 life. I believe I told you about Ben, Lestat... He taught me all about
 how he wasted his life following society's carrot.  I'm sure you see all
 these things already though.  But for me, the best way to avoid that is
 just getting down to basics,  What do I really need?  Can I have those
 things?  And What makes me happier than anything?  Usually it's my
 friends.  And what do I really need?  Simple things... some food,
 shelter, few clothes, not much... long as I'm happy... Things don't
 really matter to me, cause things don't make me happy.  People try to
 complicate things, and add all this Bullshit to it.  They pile your Ego
 down with useless baggage.  Step back and look at your true ego,
 underneath it all, and it seems like you can have and be anything!
     Well that's just a few of my thoughts on the matter.  Lestat,
 sometimes when you feel that way, just call some friends, tell em ya
 feel that way, people you can trust...
 
                                                    -Battle Axe
                                                    (Puppet Head)

 09/01/92 19:46 SYSSTAT Lestat de Valois
 Thanks, BA.  As I once told someone before, I have removed society's
 blindfold... I've learned many things on my own after realizing that I
 did not want to fit the mold, rather just to be content.  As far as
 friends I can trust, there are VERY few of those.
 
 09/04/92 03:03 FELIX Felix Furlow
 Sometimes, it is enough just to express feelings. Just writing them out
 allows you to step back and think deeper on them. I have become very
 cynical in matters of sociology and culture in this country. However, I
 also get a perverse kick in watching say MTV sell this money and sex
 lifestyle they flaunt. Or the blind faith and tithe lifestyle networks
 like CBN or TBN sell. It fascinates me to watch these displays of mass
 charm. One new TV phenomenon that really slays me is all these hidden
 video voyer shows. Specifically, the fact that a majority of the clips
 are of people making mistakes or just failing to accomplish the action
 they are attempting. I suppose the popularity comes from a need in the
 viewers of these shows to relieve the stress of society's expectations
 in them. A need to see that they are not alone in their failings and
 imperfections. This board is a vehicle for the expression of our
 feelings, so that others may enjoy and learn from them. I feel that we
 all share many common feelings, and when I learn that one of you feels
 the same, I don't feel as alone.
 
 * From The Very Center Of Concordant Opposition*
 * Felix Furlow and his trusty sidekick, Toenail*
 
 
 09/04/92 13:20 SYSOP Battle Axe (Now Puppet Head)
 
     Man that's the truth... I love seeing that feeling... seeing someone
 else expressing something exactly how I see it, or can see it, but maybe
 didn't have words to express it at that time, and I find myself not
 alone in those thoughts.  Also when people get in touch with their true
 motives and understandings, then they can be the best of friends...
 although many of us here never see each other much yet, I still feel
 that we are very close friends and getting closer.  It's often harder
 for me to be this open in person, but on here it's very easy... the
 words come out much more like i intend them too.  I think the world
 would be alot better place if we all had telepathy... this is a sort of
 telepathy, speaking like this, because it's a purer thought.  Oh well
 thanks everyone for making this sub, what I wanted it to be!
 
                                                     -Battle Axe
                                                    (Puppet Head)

 09/04/92 15:48 SYSSTAT Lestat de Valois

 I think it helps because we are allowed to concentrate on one central
 thing.  Where as in person there are many distractions in the middle of
 what we might be saying.. a picture, tv.. radio even.  And that tends to
 make us move away from the topic, creating thus a less pure train of
 thought.  Here, I am able to seperate everything and think about what I
 say before I post, and that tends to help alot.  I feel that your
 closest friends you can make without ever seeing them.  If they can
 remain true to you here, then why not in person?
  

 09/04/92 17:39 RAPUNZLE Rapunzle (Now Cyberina Flux)

 Well, Also, Lestat, you have to consider that things have ALWAYS been
 like that.  From the first Sumerian civilization 5,000 years ago to
 civilizations in the future 5,000 years (if we don't destroy ourselves
 first)  People have always seemed pretty insignifigant when you take the
 whole picture into perspective....   But all you can do is try your
 hardest to make something of yourself and try to do something to change
 the world for the better the best you know how....that's all anyone
 could ever do.
 


 09/04/92 19:43 STERLING Sterling
 any one....

 one... hmmm... that's the point... By yourself, you can't change the
 world.. There's got to be some kind of support, someone to believe in
 you...

   I see cybernet as something of a virtual society.. A computerized
 version of american culture, stripped of shallowness and needless
 bureaucratic nonsense. (oh that sounded cool.. NBN.. hmmm..) Here you
 can, and probably have, make friends that social barriers in the "real"
 world would not allow you to meet. Think about it. There are all
 different kinds of people on here... All different ages, from different
 parts of the city, from different social, ethnic, and religious groups..
 and it doesn't even matter who you are to the rest of the world. Here,
 you are the person you want to be.
   For example, I used to be an incredibly shy individual.. I would take
 zeroes rather than speak in front  of the class, I'd hide out in the
 library during lunch, and I'd talk very little.. I am nothing like that
 now... There are a lot of different things that went on in my life that
 made me realize I really needed to change. BBS'es, and later and most
 importantly Cybernet, were one of the greatest helps in allowing me to
 become the person I wanted to be... I'm still not there yet, but that's
 beside the point. What changed me most was the oppertunity to build self
 esteem without the worries of how I'm dressed or what I look like, or
 what ever. Now even in person I'm much more communative...
   Anyway, the point I was trying to make before I got into all that is
 that people working together can do anything... It's all a matter of
 co-operation and friendship...
 


 LIP MSG#  9101  08/16/92 21:48   Read: 51
 FROM: STERLING Sterling
 TO:   ALL      NO COMMENTS ALLOWED
 SMRY: hmmm...


   Well... I feel like shit...

   Geeze.... ever feel like going off into some cave in the mountains and
 hiding from the world? That's what I'm feeling right now.

   I don't care about the rest of the world... I don't want to be like
 everyone else.. Why does it hurt so much when they treat me differently?
 I AM different.... I'm me...
 
   I always try to accept people for who they are.... Why can't someone
 return the favor... Just once...

   I hate parties... I mean... I'm there with all those people around me
 and all I want is to be going home... It's like wow... I'm not even
 there...

   I'm a quiet person, but that doesn't mean I should be completely
 ignored...

   The thing is, I always feel that way.... I feel like some kind of
 outcast or something...

   Geeze.. look.. I'm sorry everyone, but I'm not going to the
 Revolution.. I just don't think I could take it...

  Yeah...

  Whatever..

  -=Sterling=-

 08/16/92 22:07 SYSGRAY They call me Gray

 listen Sterling... I have had those EXACTE same feelings for years...
 we are diffrent... we are people, we dont fit in the game that everyone
 calls scoiety... Everyone has there peoblems, but if someone is a good
 person, they overlook the faults and see the good in someone... My majoe
 fault is that i cant spell... so, i get the message across.. as for you
 Sterling, you are not an outcats, you are one of us... you are one of
 the few... I dont mean that like you are a user of Cybernet.. you are
 one of US... out of all the people in Cybernet, only a few are part of
 us... those few are the ones in here.. the ones with access to
 Peacenet... that is the purpose of this base, for people to talk about
 there problems, and for the rest of us to try and help...
 Trust me michel, i would never reject you... i respect you for a person
 and as an EXCELLENT writer... Be happy man, you have friends that
 care, no matter how few we may be...
 Gray
 
 08/16/92 22:17 STERLING Sterling

   I know you're right... That's why I'm on here so much, I guess...
 but.... still... There's going to be a lot more than us at the party..

 08/17/92 14:25 CHANNEL Channel (Kyle Schember of the band Channel69)

 Ok kids...get happy.  Sterling you're going to the revolution so don't
 even think otherwise...We all feel different at times because we
 are...And EVERYONE has problems...Some conceal them better than
 others...Not to say that concealing them is any better than expressing
 your emotions...we all care here, we even care about the people who
 don't care about us...thats one of the secrets of the universe...Just
 remember always send a positive vibe to all that you meet no matter what
 the circumstances...blah blah blah....enough of my babble...take it easy
 on yourself
 
 Channel


 08/17/92 16:42 UNICORN Fox

 I know how you feel, Sterling, very much so...  I'm one of those people
 who is WAY off in left field, and it took me a long time to find the
 secret..  You have to learn that a lot of people in the 'normal'
 mainstream society are just coasting along, people who go with the flow
 because that is what everyone else is doing..  These people are deathly
 afraid of other people thinking they are different...  I mean, look at
 the ideas that are driven into people's heads about what they should
 want and not want, and the majority of society takes that as the way
 things have always been and will always be..  What I finally had to
 learn was that it doesn't care what they think, it's what you feel about
 yourself that matters, you have to grasp the fact that you have the
 RIGHT to be who you are and what you want to be, hold on to that fact
 tight, noone can take it away from you, and always remember that there
 are other people out there like you, the creative people, and we will
 always be the 'outcasts' of mainstream society.  Face it, people resent
 what they don't have.  I've gone from hiding who and what I am, to being
 proud of it...
 I'm rambling, I know, I'm sorry..  I just want you to know, as the
 people before me have said, you ARE NOT alone, and there are people here
 who understand and can help give you strength when you need it.
                                                 Fox

 08/17/92 16:57 STERLING Sterling
 Gee...

   Well... thanks everyone.. I feel a lot better now....

   I don't know how I'm going to convince my parents to let me go to this
 thingie though..

 08/17/92 22:55 CHANNEL Channel

 lemme at em i'll tell em a thing or two...just kidding...tell them that
 you are a responsible young adult and BY GOD I WANT MY FREEDOM!  no don't
 say that...just work it...it will happen if it was meant to be....aern't
 you 17?  you should be allowed to go...have'em talk to BA he'll sweet
 talk em into it...
 
 CHannel

 08/18/92 06:44 SYSGRAY They call me Gray

 Sterling is 15 or 16... as for the being diffrent, yes... we are diffrent,
 we have ways of thinking about the outside world that seem strange and
 off the main line... we are shunned for that... I may sounds like a
 raving crazy to someone if i was to try and explain my ideas and
 concepts of the "game" that we call an outside world... just about
 everyone plays the game, Unicorn talked about it... People dont wana
 seem diffrent, and they cast out the ones that are...
 hell... i lost my train of thought....
 oh yah, i have seen several people say they are ramblin... dont ever
 worry about the size of a letter... let it flow, there are so many
 thoghts inside your head, it would be hard to express the feelings and
 ideas in a few words... let the mind wander and let the fingers do the
 walking <grin>... babble, ramble and rave like a mad man, just let
 random thoughts flow onto the keyboard... that is the best way to come
 up with ideas and to give topic to decuse...
 Gray
 

 08/18/92 07:12 LESTAT Lestat de Valois

 As usual I find my way here late.. :)  Anyway, I could never say that go
 with a flow because I don't.  I push against it.. and to me, it's more
 a challenge that way.. I feel that I am, yes different but yet I have no
 problems with it.  I've come across many a person that has accepted my
 differences and has decided that perhaps my differences were my greatest
 qualities... and if all of us thought this way, then what differences
 would we really have?  That would create one of the first steps to
 completing a real PeaceNet...
 
 08/18/92 23:56 CHANNEL Channel
 We're all equal scary people...we add up to one mighty tidy sum...

 Channel


 08/31/92 10:43 SYSOP Battle Axe (Now Puppet Head)
    
    Man sorry I've been neglecting getting back over here... man yall
 are doing so great it brings tears to my eyes reading through here...
 Well now that I'm finally taking an extra moment.  Let me see if I can
 say anything to help.

    Sterling.  I've lived within many walls in my life, behind so many
 doors that i never even KNEW existed.  And then, I dunno... something
 happened.  Something changed, I don't know what... but it was something
 in me.  Something I wouldn't trade for the world, because my past was
 apart of that change.  Now I can see over most of my walls, or bust
 through many of those locked doors.  And although your time may not be
 naturally here.  You really were able to speed up the process by just
 "Openning Up"  Your crying out made you REAL... it made you special, and
 it made you more personal to me and probably everyone here.  I'm so
 happy that I made a place for you to say that, openly, and trustingly...
 it takes alot of guts to be that honest and knoble... I'm sorry I can't
 talk to you as much as I'd like to on here... I would like to meet you
 sometime though, see if we can help you with anything.  You need help I
 think, (Not Psychological) don't get me wrong... just help from good
 friends, help with the parents ya know?  Sounds like they've been giving
 you hell.  Man I need to write more on this.  I'll end here, and start
 over... you've really inspired me though, Sterling.  Anything you want,
 just ask.  I'll help ya do it, or get it, or whatever... Anything!  Pick
 a starting point.  What do you want most of all right now?
 
                                                -Battle Axe
                                                (Puppet Head)

 09/08/92 07:22 ROBIN Robin Starveling

  Change, Different, Belonging. That's what this string of messages is
 saying to me.

 "They say it takes alot to keep a love alive.
  In every heart there pumps a different beat.
  Well if we shift the rhythm into overdrive,
  We could generate alot of heat
                            on Fifty Second Street."

                                         --Billy Joel

  From our very first heartbeat of life and perhaps even before that, we
 walk to the beat of our own drummer. Of course we're different. Yet at
 the same time human beings are social animals. We must try to get along
 and BELONG to one another without losing our own identity. There's where
 the tightrope act between the two extremes is played.
 
  We creative types tread that fine line. Liked your thoughts above,
 gang. Especially you Sterling. Keep it up. :)

                        * *Robin Starveling* *

 09/02/92 15:59 STERLING Sterling

 I believe, the main flaw in 99.99% of all social groups,
 organizations, political parties, religions, etc: forcing or pressuring
 people to join. Even in schools, most people dress like a prep or a
 skater or a waver or whatever not really because they want to, but
 because all their friends do it... People tend to outcast anything or
 anyone that is a little different... Granted, the needs of a group are
 often more important than the needs of the individual, but there are
 other ways of serving a group than eradicating the individuality of its
 members..


 09/03/92 10:53 SYSGRAY They call me Gray

 Well, i beleave that there is a better way to live... I admit that there
 is NO way to have trust in a large group of people, so be it... Then i
 will live in a small group of people..  I will learn how to trust the
 person next to me, and they will learn how to trust me... Being
 untrustworthy is not a maliscious feeling twords another person, it is
 just a fault of humanity... I want to learn how to live with people that
 i want to live with and people that want to live around me... It may
 sound like a click group, it is not, it is a colection of people that
 like being together and that share the same ideas... hell, im lost in my
 thinking again, i cant seem to put my thoughts on the screen... ill
 leave my jumble where it is and see what thrut ya might be able to make
 out of it...

 Gray
 The Confused One


 09/08/92 07:39 ROBIN Robin Starveling

   When I was in highschool, I personally classified people into three
 categories. This was not for stereotypical hasing purposes, but just for
 my own observation so I would know where I stood in the superficial
 social arena of h.s. at the time.
   First there were the overly popular "Socials" who were popular largely
 because they were the ones who most often tooted their own horn and went
 out of their way to be nice to the right people, while politically
 ignoring those not cool enough to be in the Student Council or
 Cheerleading Squad or the athletics. These people always got good grades
 and always wore the right clothes and rarely got in trouble with the
 teachers though they were just as reckless and broke the rules as much
 as the rest of us. They had brainwashed the teachers with their brown
 nosing tactics and when they risked getting in trouble, the teachers
 couldn't believe the Social in question could be involved in such
 antics, no matter how red their guilty hands were.
 
   Secondly there were the "Anti-Socials" who usually permeated Band, the
 Theater Dept., the Art Dept., and some places like Journalism and the
 Computer Lab had their share of both kinds. Anti-Socials were the exact
 opposite of Socials. They openly denounced authority and were against
 things on principle, regardless of the risks involved. They were what
 Billy Joel refers to as "Angry Young Men" and women. They stuck their
 fists in the air as they stuck their heads in the sand and could often
 be seen walking the halls of the school as if they carried a cross on
 their shoulders. They HATED school and only went for these reasons:
 1It was where they got to see their fellow Anti-Socials, 2) They HAD to
 by law though this didn't stop some from quitting, and 3) Despite their
 constant arguing over authority and how society conforms you into what
 THEY want, it was expected of them and so some went without thinking
 twice.

  Both the Socials and the Anti-Socials refused to interact, preferring
 to attack each other at every opportunity. The Anti-Socials wore
 everything from army fatigues to punk haircuts and the Socials denounced
 these "horrid fashion statements". The Anti-Socials were appalled at how
 the bureaucratic mentality of the school allowed the Socials to get away
 with murder cuz they LOOKED and ACTED appropriate while if the
 Anti-Socials got just a little out of line, they were sent to the
 principal. Both sides created little cliques and shut themselves off
 from the other. The Anti-Socials originally intended to allow anyone in
 that wasn't Social. They did not plan at first to create a clique. It
 just sort of happened, and soon the Anti-Socials were trying to all look
 alike, and as unlike the Socials as possible. Black became the "safe"
 color for any Anti-Social because everything goes with black, and they
 claimed it made statements about how fashion is dead and blah blah.
 
  The third group of people I observed was a group I called
 "Pseudo-Socials". Actually this was never a group. These were the people
 who ended up at my table during lunch. We didn't "fit in" to either
 extreme. We were too "normal" for the Anti-Socials and not normal enough
 for the Socials. We were all individuals, but existed somewhere in
 between the two extremes of the spectrum. I noticed that most freshman
 started in this territory, and over the course of their first year,
 slowly EVOLVED into one or the other. Personally, I never could "fit in"
 to either of the two main cliques. I leaned towards the Anti-Socials but
 they openly experimented with drugs and activity that while I don't care
 if others participate, I personally refused, so I didn't truly belong
 there. The Socials made me ill, because they were so obviously false. I
 found friends in both cliques, but only when others from that clique
 were not around.
 
   I learned some powerful and painful lessons about friendships in high
 school.
   Anytime I hear a person want to create a group of "free thinkers" that
 insists on not being a clique, I know it will become one anyway. It is
 inevitable. It's best to forever be "On The Outside Looking In".

                        * *Robin Starveling* *

 LIP MSG# 11097  09/09/92 16:01   Read: 8
 FROM: RAPUNZLE Rapunzle (Cyberina Flux)
 TO:   ALL
 SMRY: Poem

 This is a poem I wrote last night when I couldn't sleep....I KNOW it
 needs a few adjustments...but I think I'll tryi it out first...

 A puddle on the back of my hand.
 Drip, drip.
 A solution so salty and moist.

 They're there when I'm happy.
 Drip, drip.
 Little angels of rejoice.

 They're there when I feel down.
 Drip, drip.
 The whole world crashing down.

 They appear when I've won.
 Drip, drip.


 LIP MSG# 10484  09/01/92 11:42   Read: 12

 FROM: SYSOP    Battle Axe (Now Puppet Head)
 TO:   ALL
 SMRY: Love

    Ok this is just some of my thoughts on things... It's hard to love
 today it seems.  Life makes it hard to love with all it's wanting,
 all it's emphasis on the self.  Love is something we have to stumble
 upon or be lucky enough to learn from someone.  It's a priceless
 commodity, and very rare.  It helps alot though when you can ask for
 love, and know how to look for it.  A person may ask for love in many
 ways, most often with tears.  Why does pain go hand in hand with
 love?  Because to experience love in it's fullest, your emotions have
 to be very strong, and when your emotions are strong, you are more
 susceptable to pain.  People try to avoid that pain it seems, they
 put up defenses to try and plan around the pain.  But those are the
 ones that usually hurt the worst, cause while those defenses are up,
 they cannot feel true love, or give it.  I've learned that a person
 doesn't need any False defenses.. they block in more than they block
 out.  If your honest, and you Understand your feelings, and you know
 they are right.  No one can hurt you, THAT is how to be invulnerable
 to much of the pain... Believe in yourself, even when your friends
 don't.  No one can knock me down when I can look them back in the eye
 and say, "Who are you to judge me?  You don't even know me!  I could
 look into your heart and find problems there, no matter how perfect
 you seem.  I am me, you aren't.  I am honest about me, are you?"
    It takes time to understand someone... Just looking at them,
 talking to them, or being around them sometimes won't tell you much
 about a person.  But by being confidently honest, you can get to know
 anyone really well, and it starts with dropping the image, act, or
 whatever you call it, that makes you not do and say what you truly
 feel... To many people fear being judged.  Judge me then I say...
 it's worth it!  What one person dislikes, another good friend may
 truly love you for, and it will be that much better for you and the
 few that share.  Soon you will be content in knowing people know you
 and they respect your feelings, because you and your feelings are
 strong now.  They have foundation, they are righteous & true, and
 those that aren't will know that you are.  Inside, they will know
 you are "REAL" and even the coldest hearts can have respect for a
 person that can speak and be confident and strong in their beliefs.
    
    Which leads me to one of my favorite sentiments:

  The most important things are the hardest things to say.  They
  are the things we get ashamed of, because words belittle them.
  Words shrink things that seemed limitless when they are in our
  heads to no more than life-size when brought out.  But it's more
  than that isn't it?  The most important things lye too close to
  where our secret hearts are buried, like landmarks to a treasure
  your enemies would love to steal away, and you may make revela-
  tions that cost you dearly, only to have people look at you in a
  funny way.  Not understanding what you said at all, or why it was
  so important to YOU that you almost cried while saying it. That's
  the worst I think.  When the secret stays locked inside, not for
  want of a teller, but for want of understanding ear.

                                                        -Stephen King
                                                          <The Body>

                                               -Battle Axe
                                              (Puppet Head)

 09/08/92 07:30 ROBIN Robin Starveling
  I had read that passage when I read The Body, after seeing Stand By Me.
 I never thought of how well it stands alone and makes so strong a point
 when taken out of context. Thanks for reminding me of that passage, BA!
 
                        * *Robin Starveling* *
  
 09/18/92 06:52 SYSOP Battle Axe (Puppet Head)
    True... I read that Story about 3 times and Saw the movie before
 that Passage ever stood out, and I really noticed it.  Then it was so
 clear, I could have cried...
                                                     -Battle Axe

 P.S. I have that passage memorized always... Just like this passage from
      an old poem:
     
      There is So much Data, Some Knowledge, Little Wisdom,

        but even Less Art...

 LIP MSG#  9040  08/16/92 00:04   Read: 60
 FROM: PANDORA  pandora
 TO:   ALL
 SMRY: meaning of life

 in my opinion.....

 the meaning of life is contained in every single expression of life. It
 is present in the infinity of forms and phenomena that exists in all of
 creation. Life blooms into flowers, love songs, music, and explodes into
 stars, nebulae and galaxies.
   We exist in a living, pulsating, dancing universe, and we are a
 privileged species because the creative force of all life is most alive
 in our souls.
   Each of us arrives on this planet with a purpose.  To fulfill that
 purpose is to ignite the spark of divinty in us and give meaning to our
 lives....

 -pandora...

 09/01/92 21:03 ROBIN Robin Starveling
  The meaning of life is in the dictionary.

  Life only HAS meaning for the invidual that seeks it. Many people live
 fruitful, happy lives without ever even giving more than a passing
 thought to what the meaning of life is. These people are born, they
 live, they grow old, having children, grandchildren and
 greatgrandchildren and then they die, leaving behind them a meager
 legacy that only a handful of people will appreciate. The meaning of
 that person's life only matters to that person and the people s/he
 touched in his/her road through life.
 
  Many of us (myself included) place goals in our lives and if we fail to
 achieve those goals it somehow makes our life less significant. Those
 who achieve those goals feel more satisfied by life, but in the global
 picture those goals and achievements mean nothing to anyone but the one
 who placed the goal upon him/herself. Its like we place value on our own
 lives subjectively, and then think that outsiders who are more objective
 use our value system to gauge our lives.
 
  Olympians who spend years perfecting their bodies to win the gold
 should be commended, but just because they spent their lives training
 for the Olympics, does that make their lives better than ours because we
 didn't care about the Olympics? And is the life of a person who won the
 bronze more valuable than those who trained just as long and hard but
 missed third place by milliseconds? Or is the one with the gold better
 than the one with the bronze?
 
  Perform that same race two months later and there is a great chance the
 one who won the gold last time will not be first the next race. Everyone
 has their offdays and great days. The ones who win the gold can place
 just as much of their success to luck as they can to training.
 
  Everyone's life is special and valuable, but only has meaning for the
 one that lives it, and the ones that are touched by his/her life.
 
  The meaning of life is in the dictionary...

  :)                     * *Robin Starveling* *

 09/04/92 03:30 FELIX Felix Furlow
 My definition of the meaning of life, is the search for the meaning.

 * From The Very Center Of Concordant Opposition*
 * Felix Furlow and his trusty sidekick, Toenail*


 09/06/92 07:43 ROBIN Robin Starveling

  PANDORA, I didn't send that message up to insult your statements.
 Rereading it made me realize it may sound like I'm being arrogant or
 something and that was not my intention. Apologies if I offended.

  FELIX, I have a friend in Houston who calls himself TOEJAM. Is he and
 your friend TOENAIL related? Just checking.

  BOB, I have that copy of "The Swinging Love Corpses Do Perry Como" the
 album which you were talking about. I'll send it to you as soon as you
 rematerialize in this reality.

 MARVIN: Life, don't talk to ME about the meaning of LIFE.

 * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
 
 That's Life
 What's Life?
 A magazine.
 You have a copy?
 No.
 That's Life
 What's Life?
 A magazine.
 You have a copy?
 No.
 That's life
 What's Life?
 A magazine...

                        * *Robin Starveling* *

 09/06/92 12:43 SYSLIAM Nicholas Hel

 a brief realization into the meaning of life as it pertians to this day
 and age:

 Life is more like anything that is an accomplishment, it is what
 besseches you in a manner of things, it is not always good but niether
 is it bad, it has the complexities of the universe but the simplicity of
 a beautiful flower blooming, it is an understanding that is hoped for,
 and reached success.....Life is nature to some and natural to
 others......
 
 if you can make it then you have a good recipe, but this is an ideal
 that is never completed, life for me is understanding and
 companionship....concluding, life has no meaning for me it this
 moment...just a realization of what could be..
 
 Santiago/Liam

 09/08/92 08:05 ROBIN Robin Starveling

 Again I reiterate:

        "THE MEANING OF LIFE IS IN THE DICTIONARY"

 Just live it. The meaning to you personally will be revealed
 to you if you are observant. Looking for the meaning of life
 will prove to be a fruitless endeavor. Waiting patiently for
 it to come to you is a better way of looking for it & allows
 you to use your time more wisely by actually LIVING life....

                        * *Robin Starveling* *



 09/11/92 23:42 PANDORA pandora
 could *I* have caused all this??/


 09/12/92 05:33 ROBIN Robin Starveling
 Just blame it on life. Or Bush. BLAME EVERYTHING ON GEORGE BUSH! BLAME
 LIFE ON GEORGE! BLAME BROCOLI ON GEORGE. It's a lotta fun, and the
 latest craze in the Congress nowadays. :)

                        * *Robin Starveling* *



 09/23/92 05:49 SYSGRAY They call me Gray
    You have been the cause of a lot of things that you dont know abouyt
 Pandora.. That is what life is all about.. Touching others lives, making
 yourself known and letting your ideals and knowledge out to the others
 around you... Everyone here on the system has changed others lives... I
 know that by meeting Robin i have gotten to know my writing better just
 by seeing how he writes and how he convays his soul through his words...
 And by meeting Liam... <grin> he's a trip... Lets just leave it at
 that... There are so many things to do i life if ya would just lay back
 and take the ride as it comes...
 And then we come to Pandora...You have changed some things that i usta 
 take for granted... You have made me understand a little more about 
 myself...
 Thanx...
 and to that i say blah... Goodnight people...
 Gray

 09/24/92 12:14 ROBIN Robin Starveling
 Wow. I just found out I changed GRAY's life. Gosh, I feel just like Sam
 Beckett in Quantum Leap! :)

 GIVE A HOOT! ROCK THE VOTE!
   * *Robin Starveling* *
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