                                Deceased Ambition
                                ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
                                
Well, the final chapter before i close the door.

I'm ending all ambitions to compose.

I made enough tunes.. all crap but i created it.
I joined a few groups but i never had the feeling that i was a usefull com-
poser so if all else fails:quit.

I tried one year with Acme but i never fit into their team so i decided to
leave them on my own initiative.

where you a member anyway then?
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Well I can understand that you even didn't know i was part of anything anyhow
but i allways have been some kinda ghost in this scene wich didn't matter to
me anyway because i had own goals to reach wich kept me composing.
I'm not a wellknown composer and i'm certainly not the best. (that was never
my intention)

Now i can create whatever i have inside my head and most own goals are reached
but i still do not mean anything for anyone so basicly i've wasted 10 years
of my life putting it into making all this crap.

Composing on C-64 where it all started on was the best time i had.
I enjoyed composing on the three-tracked machine and i meant at least some-
thing to a few groups.
Groups wich used most tunes were Culture wich went over to Verdict and later
on i switched to Focus.
My only commercial production was Tibo's Tale wich was my last since Asshole
Houwers didn't pay the complete share wich we dealed about.

Composing on Amiga was only for my own orientation and improvement.
I tried to be an active composer for diverse groups but most groups were too
lame to even be able to release anything.

Starting on PC I decided to go further on my own so it even wasn't my inten-
tion to join anything.
I sucked real bad... Mainly i was busy to extend reaching my own goals.

I never left Focus but continue on C-64 was out of the question because i
ran out of spare commy's and all wich i had in posession were broken.
When i tried to implement my 1571 drive into my pc to convert all my c64
warez to .d64 files with x1541 my 1571 drive quit on me too.
(isn't it a damn shame huh? ÷};^,)

When TDJ compiled a new team Analogue on PC i gave it a shot to join it.
Due to the overload of members he suggested me to join Acme and recommend
me at Aap's.
And so I did join Acme.

With only one beta release of Afrodesiac one of my tunes was launched.
Afrodesiac never finished so the official version has never been released.
If you have the unofficial version, you're one of the less who still have it!

All my other tunes remained inside the storingroom where it has been long
enough to my opinion.

I have taken ALL my tunes out to compile into my first and also last and big-
gest music-collection series ever.

You have the compressed version of my history. These are my last words wich
will end my period as musician.

Enjoy ,,Deceased Ambition'' series.


Vincent Voois, Tue December 3rd 1996

